Heroin

It seems as of late that every time I turn around another kid is dieing from a heroin overdose or as it is called on the street a “hot pack” (cut with another drug usually prescription). My son now 34 still dealing with his demons and drug issues, his drug of choice was crack. (I’m saying was because I am raising his daughter. When she came into my home 10 years ago I couldn’t allow him to be a part of our lives until he was straight. He still isn’t straight and the last information I got which is about a year old is that he was arrested in Mississippi for operating a Meth Lab. I’m assuming his drug of choice changed.) Now it’s my nephew, he is a heroin addict and is fighting the battle to get clean. It seems that 2 weeks is the maximum he is able to stay straight. He is currently in Drug Court, which is an alternative to prison, and is battling for his life. His last relapse was on Monday and I feel he was reaching out to me and I let him down. He told me he thought that it was a good night for a dirt nap that all anyone would have to fight about is his clothes and bed. I told him laughingly that he wasn’t going to leave me to work alone and let it go.

I know I can’t blame myself and that I have to detach from the situation just like I had to with my own son. It’s not easy you or I always feel that I could have done more to help. This is my sister’s only child; if anything happens to him she will be destroyed. I remember that every time my son was in jail it was a relief that he had a roof over his head, food and was straight.

I don’t know how we can help our children find a better life. I have a 20-year-old daughter that lives at home, works and goes to school in the last month she has lost 6 acquaintances to heroin. This is white middle-class families it is affecting.