The viewing and funeral are over, the hundreds of people that came to the candle vigil have all gone, most leaving with tears in their eyes. Now the emptiness of going on day to day without Dominick becomes a reality. More awareness has been brought to child abuse and the fight for a tougher law against the abuser “Dominick's Law” is being drafted and petitions are being prepared. As days pass the memories seem to fade into the back ground of daily life.
I don't think the picture in my mind of this little boy in the hospital bed will ever leave my mind. The bruised, burnt, broken baby will haunt my mind forever. Part of it is how can any human being do this to anyone let alone a child and the other part is that could have been one of my children. I was a victim of domestic violence and I was not an on looker when the violence headed my childrens direction. After being at the hospital with Dominick and seeing this broken little boy I felt a great need to call my adult children and apologize for all the times that they didn't feel safe in their own home. I didn't do my job as a mother, but the words of my mother haunt me to this day. “It's better to have a bad father than no father at all”, and I didn't feel I deserved better. For some reason it seem to justify staying with the man I was married to and to put up with the emotional and physical scars. I'm not sure what changed my mind, I knew my children deserved better even if I didn't. I thank God that I had the strength to leave when I did.
I think of all the women and children in this situation and seriously wonder how we can let these women and children know they are worth so much more. They deserve so much more. So many of these abusers are such wonderful people until they get home.
Though I struggle daily now to make ends meet, to keep a roof over their heads and in just being alone without a hug when things are really bad, I know we are happier and safer.
What I can't get my head around is what kind of comfort do these people find in destroying the defenseless and the weaker? How does this make them feel? The remorse is little because they do strike again. I don't believe it is drugs and/or alcohol. I just don't understand the cruelty to anyone let alone a child.
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