Depression and Miracles that help

I have had my bouts with depression. Sometimes sever, other times still able to function. I have been told it was caused by menopause, post traumatic stress syndrome, I just think it is part of the ups and downs of life. In the last 10 years I have been able to recognize my depression as I am coming into the black hole that takes forever to emerge to become a somewhat "normal" person.

I am a single mother of four, two still at home. The place I worked for 13 years went out of business at the same time my second divorce became final and I am in my fifties. Finding a full-time position has been next to impossible and when I do interview I get the feeling that I am too old for the position, and I live in Michigan 1000 people for each job available. So on a daily basis I fight the sinking feeling of depression.

I have found that finding things to change my thinking patterns work, if I don't fall so far that I need professional help. There are three things that I have found to help coach me through the dark feelings of my life. The first thing is the DVD "The Secret". I purchased the DVD when it became an instant best seller after being on TV and find that if I watch it daily, it is my continual coach to think positive. The second is to reread the book "Your Best Life Now" by Joel Osteen this helps me to remember that I am in Gods favor and that everyday could be my day for my miracle. The third thing is to randomly find a passage in the "Course of Miracles". All these things help remind me that I am in control of my life and the Universe will provide for me.

For the past two years I have had to ask for hardship exemptions for my property taxes. This doesn't make them go completely away but reduces them significantly to (in most cases) something that is affordable. Then I have to go to the County Tax Office to ask for an extension on foreclosure on my house that I have lived in for 30 years.

When I made my appointment with the County this year I was told I had to have $4,200.00 by March 31st. Needless to say my depression deepened and I let it get to the point that I almost fell into the "black hole". My appointment was today and I started last Monday reading and watching. Everyday I told myself that "money comes easily and frequently", "I am in Gods favor", "only right things happen" and that "today could be my day for my miracle".

Today my miracle happened all my taxes were postponed for another year. Not that my employment changed or that my money situation changed, but it gives me one more year of positive thinking and of finding my place.